Over the last couple of years, I have been writing this blog. I started when I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. I was a Christian man with a progressive degenerative disease. I thought if I shared my journey, I could keep whoever would read my posts up to date on this new life. I also thought I may be able to help someone going through a challenge like this.
Because of my life experience, much of what I wrote was reflecting my growing belief that miracles and healings were a thing of the past. I believed God was limited by what Adam and Eve did at the fall. They gave the Earth over to Satan when they disobeyed God and gave Satan the right to be here. Jesus came to Earth, died and rose again to bridge the gap between God and man that was created by the fall. God used healing and miracles to certify Jesus and establish the new church. Once the church was established, healings and miracles became rare. Jesus had saved us, but mankind, ( including Christians, ) were still subject to the consequences of the fall and this fallen world. Included in the consequences were sickness and injury. God was hindered from healing me here on Earth and I would be healed when I got to heaven.
Then last Sunday at church, my Pastor said something at the end of his message that made me change my direction. He said ” If you wait until you get to heaven to get your answer, it’s not on God, it’s on you.” With those few words, I started to question much of what I had written over the last number of years. I tried to think it away, but I couldn’t.
A couple of days later, I was sitting in at home typing on my computer when a new text message came up on my screen. It was from my wife. I could tell by the title it was a link to a video on healing. She and I have had some pretty strong discussions about healing and our views differed greatly. It had gotten to the point that she was afraid to mention healing to me, fearing my reaction. I had settled the issue in my mind and I didn’t want her reminding me about my not being healed. She had sent me things on healing before and I hadn’t reacted well. But I decided to watch the video this time. An hour later I found myself questioning all my conclusions I had come to regarding healing and miracles. As I reviewed all I had written over the last few years, I was convicted by my easy answers, views and opinions that I had put out there. I had found an escape clause to my having to trust God and having the faith to believe for my healing and acting on that faith. Yes, as I write this, I still feel the Parkinson’s. In fact, in the last couple of days it’s gotten worse. But for the first time, I can see myself healed. I don’t know when it will happen, but I believe God has used my Pastor and my wife to plant the seed of healing in my mind and in my spirit. I did believe God could use me with Parkinson’s disease. Now I can see Him using me without it.
In Philippians 3:13 it says,” Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.”
So I have decided to change direction. I removed all my blog posts that I have written in the past. If I write any more blog posts, they will be from a Christian mind healed of Parkinson’s disease.