As You know, I have Parkinson’s disease. I don’t know when it hit me or where it came from. I don’t think I asked for it. Maybe I did and don’t realize that I did. I know I didn’t ask for it specifically. I could have done something that caused me to get it, either in the natural ,( getting exposed to something that caused me to get it or a genetic predisposition for it.) Maybe spiritual, (maybe it was caused by an act of disobedience that opened the door for me to get it.)
As You are well aware, I have sinned from time to time since You saved me at the age of 6. I do know from that moment, I have been Your son. Everything that has been done to me and that I have done has happened as Your son. Nothing has gotten past You.
If my memory is correct, I do think whenever I have done something wrong, I have asked for forgiveness from You and anyone else I have wronged. There may be some forgiveness I have missed, but I know from past experience, You are good at bringing any I have missed to my attention.
So, however I got this Parkinson’s thing, I don’t like it. It’s no fun for me or Marcia and anyone else in our lives. I’m sure Your not happy about me having to live the rest of my life with this thing getting worse and worse either. Would You help me get rid of it? If there Is something I did to get it that I am unaware of, please show me. If it’s genetic or I have been exposed to some contamination that gave it to me, please clean me of whatever that may be and repair the damaged places.
I know I live in a world where mankind invited Parkinson’s in, but ever since I discovered my brother Jesus holding out His hand to me to save me, and I accepted His hand, I really haven’t been a citizen of this world anymore. Yes, I still have to live here for a while longer, but I would like to do it without a movement disorder.
I know I have asked for this a number of times in the last few years and some of my friends have asked for me, but I just thought I would ask again.
Whatever happens, You know that I love You and will love You forever. And I know that You love me even more and will love me forever. I hope your not disappointed in me because I still have Parkinson’s. I know faith pleases You. If my faith has been lacking, please let me know.
In closing, I really want to thank you for my life. Despite the Parkinson’s disease and the other bumps in the road to heaven, I really love the life You have given me. It’s greater than I ever imagined. And I know that if I shuffle up to the gates, I won’t be shuffling once I pass them.
Thank You for that gift and that assurance.
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I was so very moved and touched more than you’ll ever know. Be healed brother Mark !!!
Thank you for your thoughts and prayer.
You are such a great writer. I love that you make us experience through your written words, the experiences you are going through, although we all detest that you are suffering with Parkinsons. Know that I love you like a BIG, TALL, HUGE, GIGANTIC little brother and that I remain here for you 24/7. If you ever need anything and you want to test my commitment to you and yours, call me at 3am and ask. I will not disappoint!
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Thank you John. I don’t want this entry to be mistaken for a normal post. It is my Prayer.
Your transparency and candid reality are inspiring, encouraging and challenging! Your deep faith blesses me immensely! You have truly entered the fellowship of His sufferings! I pray for the Presence of Jesus to be felt by you every day. The strong spirit of a man sustains him in times of bodily affliction. Blessings!
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Thank you Peggy for your kind words and your prayers.
Mark, what a gift you have for writing! I am amazed at the depth of your thoughts and words! You truly speak from the heart! My brother-in-law also has Parkinson’s, so I will pass your words of wisdom to him and his wife. Thanks for sharing how God is working in your life. God bless.
Thank you, Jan. God not only made life, but He makes life worth while. God bless you too.