What does one do when your left arm refuses to swing when you walk?
What does one do when you lose your sense of smell?
What does one do when your left hand starts to shake when you try to use it?
What does one do when your left wrist starts to hurt and never stops hurting?
What does one do when your right wrist begins to feel like your left?
What does one do when your back starts to hurt and never stops hurting and the pain constantly travels from one side to the other?
What does one do when you are not able to take even over the counter pain relievers due to terrible side effects?
What does one do when you regularly lose your sense of balance?
What does one do when you don’t have the strength to stand for more than a few minutes without needing to sit down?
What does one do when you can’t walk for more than a block before you are too exhausted to walk anymore?
What does one do when you do not feel it is safe to drive anymore?
What does one do when you lose the ability to work?
What does one do when you lose the ability to speak loud enough and clear enough so that others understand what you are trying to say?
What does one do when you are not able to pick up your one year old grandson?
What does one do when you lose much of your ability to communicate your ever-growing love for your wife, either by soft or passionate touch or the subtle expressions of love made by a face and hands and body and soul unencumbered by limitations of the brain?
What does one do when you find yourself spending much of your time alone?
Here is what I did.
I started to write. I had never had a desire to write before I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. I discovered that writing helps me cope with the challenges of living with this disease. Describing in written words helps me communicate to myself and others what I am feeling and experiencing. I decided to start this blog. It gives me a place to record and share my Intentional writing and my random thoughts and stories. Whenever I write, there are always certain things that I keep in mind.
First, I remember that I am never alone. God is my Father, Jesus is my brother and the Holy Spirit is my guide. They never leave my side.
Concerning my physical challenges, I have asked for and wait for healing. I trust God and I know He knows what I’m feeling and facing every day. He told me His mercies are new every morning. Whether my pain and physical challenges continue or not, my every moment is in His hands. I will either be set free from these momentary inconveniences in this world or when I reach home.
As far as how my limitations affect everyone that touches my life, whether it’s family or friends or strangers, I will do my best to fulfill my God given responsibilities as a Christian man. I am part of a family and a member of the human race. My limitations do not excuse me from showing love, kindness, mercy, patience, forgiveness, generosity, and all the other attributes required as a person that loves God.
And every minute of my life, I remember the greatest gift God has given me, besides Himself.
He has given me my wife. She is the author of everything good in my life here on earth. She is the one that has made my life worth getting up for every morning. She promised me she would stand by me through everything. The good and the bad. She has kept that promise and continues to keep it every day, even though the bad is overtaking the good. My love for her is forever.
So, at least for me, this is what one does.